May I have a minute a minute of your time,

You slipped away while I wasn’t looking…..  No Hug, No saying I Love You, No saying Goodbye.

Lest We Forget – words spoken of our Anzacs our brave courageous fighting men & women the ones who gave of themselves to protect our homelands so we could have the privileged lives we lead today, some may say they are long since forgotten only a mere memory of a time that once stood, to the majority of us they are the Heart Stone of our beautiful country New Zealand.

Sometimes in life we go against what we truly believe in not speaking our truth staying silent in order to protect those closest to us, not rocking the boat just in case that boat we rock capsizes throwing those we are told we are to protect from the truth, into the chaos the drama that surrounds us …

Can you hear me, do the words that I speak sound so unfamiliar to you that they reach your ears with a foreign accent or is it just that you don’t hear the words that I speak the way they sound in my head ?

The inner you the carefree child the ambitious teenager the wise adult always changing always learning, gathering information weeding out of the old patterning the old habits the old inner you, awakening to see a new day – Transformation

Don’t you ever just want to kick the past hurts as far as you can into the past to never have them resurface again?

Sometimes when these old emotional wounds catch up with us they almost feel like you have literally been trampled by a herd of stampeding cattle pulling oneself up off the ground dusting off the imprints & rearranging ones dishevelled self emotionally can leave us physically drained!

“Feel The Fear & Do It Anyway” great words wise words but when the fear strickens you & stops you from making the decisions to move forward how do you step out of the fear, how easy is it really?

We all seek approval for a job well done to be given the thumbs up to know we are okey we have the green light to go, but have you actually thought  how many times we do that in our lives to want the feedback almost like a certificate to hang on the wall for all in sundry that pass through our lives to look at & acknowledge we are good great fantastic at what we achieved in our life, or do we just want that approval from family or close friends?

“What is my inner child” I have been asked this question on many occasions, it is so easy for me as I interact with my inner child regularly she comes out to play with her quick wit & cheeky face she doesn’t want to grow up, I sometimes forget not all people are aware there is an inner child that resides within them.

As we grow from infancy to adulthood we are still connected to the childlike soul we were as children this is our inner child, it can come out anytime in life when we are playful when we are insecure when we are angry, have you ever had someone say to you ” Your acting like a child” or “When are you going to grow up” or you may have had a meltdown that looking back on it now resembles more of a tantrum & you literally throw the toys out of the cot!!

I think we all aspire to be good role models in life to have good values & morals to be pillars of society so to speak, but it can all go quite pear shaped when we make certain decisions in life that affect  others & ourselves reacting with our voices overreacting with our fists “It can take a lifetime to build a good reputation it can take a moment to ruin one”. When one has fallen from grace it can sometimes be very hard to build and repair the damage that has been done not only to the victims but the family & friends of the guilty are also affected, being guilty by association for family & the friends of those that have fallen from grace this may even be a life sentence for these souls as they too are labeled by society it can be very hard and unjust living under the light of another that has caused grief & heartache.

The naivety in me thought bullying was an ugly side of some children that only happened while attending school mean little children that took out their frustrations on other classmates, well  I was completely wrong…. What I have heard what I have seen through doing my healing work is that bullying can happen way past the days in the school playground, there is no age limit there is no gender there is no race nor creed it can happen to anyone any time of life.

‘Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder’ as the saying goes but do we really chose to see what lies beneath the exterior of a person, do we see the entirety of that person we meet for the first time, or do we make up our assumptions of them based on the comments others have made, some people make up their minds about a person by the way they present themselves, we become very fickle in nature when we decide so quickly not allowing that person the time needed to really get to know them.

Have you ever stopped to think or asked yourself what would you say, what would you do if your son, daughter, brother, sister, or friend told you they were Gay, this beautiful child you have brought into the world, this little soul you have nurtured loved cherished, this amazing sibling or friend you grew up with trusted, loved does it really matter? Will it change the way you feel about them, does it define who they truly are by saying they are Gay, that they are attracted to someone of their own gender, that they have fallen in love with someone of the same sex.

It’s a funny word Forgiveness as children we were taught to “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive them that trespass against us” I can remember saying I was “Sorry” more times than I choose to remember, sometimes I was unaware as to why I needed to say it in the first place, maybe I was just saying it to keep the peace so life around me ran more smoothly.

Forgiveness for others yes, it maybe very hard to say we forgive at the heat of the moment in anger we may spit out the word “Sorry” but do we ever forgive ourselves for the roles we play in the drama in our lives?

As we start our lives as eager youngsters full of ambition, excitment wonder of what we will become when we grow up, we don’t stop & say to ourselves we can not achieve this, we charge on in brimmed to the top of our knowing, like little town criers we stand in our truth and announce to the world. Some succeed in becoming what they wanted to be as children, others get there eventually many flounder thinking life has passed them by & have settled on roles they are in now.

Judgement in ourselves judgement in others where does this stem from? Are we the ones who create it from our own thought patterns? Do we stand in judgement of ourselves as a result of not fitting in with the crowd? Is it from our growing years, our school years, our home life our work environment ? Do we feel the need to present ourselves in a certain way, think in a certain way because this is all old pattering old behaviour?

How do we see ourselves in the mirror, in the eyes of our children, our loved ones in the eyes of strangers? When we see our own reflection in the mirror is it truely what we see reflected back to us or is it the little voice inside our heads that tells us we are not good enough, smart enough, too fat, too thin, getting older not bolder, not worth loving or being loved? Do we really see the true beauty that resides not only on the outside but on the inside as well?

Well I must say this has been one very interesting journey!!

I am so excited to be writing my very first blog on my new web page wow !!

Firstly I would like to thank all the beautiful people that have held my hand & walked with me to this chapter in my life, it wasn’t easy for some of you as people that know me to the deeps of my soul know I can resist with all of my being.

Funny I texted my dear friend today, I mentioned I was having time out enjoying a hot chocolate & cuddling my inner child!!

How often do we actually do that? the small child-self that resides within all of us?